Hey guys I really suggest you if you have problem or something just imagine your problem is "the little useless thing" that I write in this mussy article.
Week 4th of November 2013 I wrote such a threat for myself but actually I meant to make myself realize about something. These are peculiar words that I wrote "It's not November anymore. It's April and you know what? I'm drowning in some things. I'm trying to enjoy lots of thing. It's obvious. I know what is right and I know what is not. I do have purpose but when I'm on my way to get there I always face an obstacle, not only one actually.
Here you go, you just have to face it, be real. Now you're not the only one who lives in this beautiful universe. There are lots of people who live in this universe, it's not only about you. WAKE UP! and RISE! Be a fresh water in a desert."
That's all, I think I was unconscious when I wrote those peculiar words and when I read it again the other day I feel like I was the most conscious one because actually I force myself to face the truth, to face my problems, to face all the obstacles when I wrote those peculiar words.
You know what? When I read that again the other day I feel the sense of those peculiar words, it says that I have to brace myself to face those things, facing problems, facing obstacles, facing truths yeah and another sense says that I'm not the only one who lives in this beautiful universe, so that means when something happens, it's not only about me. I read this word "It's not only about me" so many times then I feel the other sense. Sometimes I'm angry, I let myself get mad because a little useless thing while I have so many reason not to be that angry or mad. And then what? that day before I wrote and read so many times these peculiar words I chose to be angry just because a little useless thing. I was afraid of that little useless thing. That little useless thing frightened me so much then I did something bad like I let myself get mad then I put myself in such a bad feeling, like I blame myself for everything, feel guilty and I listen to a mellow song, drowning in that worst situation and I forget that I'm still the one of creature of this beautiful universe who can be happier than I was thinking, I forget that I can spread kindness, I forget that I can cheer someone else up, but what? no I chose to feel guilty and blaming myself like I'm the worst one ever that doesn't deserve a good life.
AFTER ALL OF THOSE USELESS FEELING, HERE COMES THOSE PECULIAR WORDS THAT I READ REPEATEDLY. And then it really hit my ass, it woke me up, it turned me on!
FEEL GUILTY DOESN'T EVEN HELP! I could be pretty much happier than I was thinking.
One thing that I have to do is just facing them, but facing them is not an easy thing to do.
I have to accept myself from little useless thing that I got. I have to accept myself of doing wrong. I have to accept myself that I've let myself get mad. And then I have to realize that there still so many reasons not to be that BAD! Yeah "BE A FRESH WATER IN A DESERT" that's the last word that I wrote and yeah unforgettable. I'm still wondering how can I write those peculiar words.
"BE A FRESH WATER IN A DESERT" just remember you might be useful for somebody, you might be the one who can cheers somebody up, you're valuable for some people! but remember things happen is not always about you, when it happens to you, you have to brace yourself!! at least it will reduce the pain when terrible things really comes to you, don't feel guilty too much, don't blame yourself too deep!! There will always be another bite of cherry...
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